I really do feel awful a lot, just generally not worth anyone’s time and like I am destroying everything I touch, mostly my own future. I feel so lazy and lonely and like no one will ever take me seriously because I am so awkward and panicky inside around people that I just talk about stupid random shit and never anything important. I feel like a fraud and a waste of life and like I’ll always be outshined by everyone, will never accomplish much and don’t deserve to be me.