Rebecca

They want me to choose a gravestone for you,

But I do not recall the words you uttered;

I cannot remember the grins you flashed –

How could I build your memorial?

Every time my opinion changes,

I change my memory (of you);

It has never been a fixed point anyway –

Floating aimlessly, born from my lonely imagination.

I have no idea what just happened. I remember getting up to get my phone charger, walking over to the shelf and reading the text on one of my posters.
The next thing I remember is realizing I lie on the floor, holding the charger against my chest, my entire torso feeling numb.
I can’t have lost anything longer than a few seconds, but there is a blank space in my memory and I don’t like that.