I am so disappointed
angry
sad
in disbelief
etc
because I broke my 3+ months of being “clean” from self-harm.
Schlagwort: tw: self-harm
“But when it came right down to it, the skin of my wrist looked so white and defenseless that I couldn’t do it. It was as if what I wanted to kill wasn’t in that skin or the thin blue pulse that jumped under my thumb, but somewhere else, deeper, more secret, and a whole lot harder to get at.”
I have found a less permanent coping mechanism.
Sitting on the windowsill with a candle next to me while drinking coffe, listening to Mars and reading long and well-written fanfiction is pretty much the best I can do these days.
The Light in the Sky 