Schlagwort: personal

I just want to tell him, want to tell him he’s dead and how everything is different now. I am finally an adult and I just want him to see me and see how everything has changed and I want to know his opinion on this one last time.

Bold What’s true

allydiafeels:

My first name:
A-F
G-K
L-P
Q-Z

I love my name
I hate my name
My name is hard to pronounce (not for Germans though)
My name is boring
I have a nickname

My age:
I am considered a minor
I am over 18 
I am under 13
I am between the ages of 13 and 18
I wish I was older
I wish I was younger
I like my age
I know how to drive
I drink/smoke and I am underage

My appearance:
I have brown hair
I have blonde hair
I have black hair
I have red hair
I have an unnatural hair color
I’ve dyed my hair before
I’ve gotten highlights/lowlights before
I have curly hair
I have straight hair
I have wavy hair
I have frizzy hair
I straighten my hair regularly
I have brown eyes
I have blue eyes
I have gray eyed
I have green eyes
My eyes change color
I use color contacts
I have glasses
I use regular contacts
I got laser eye surgery.
I am under 5’4”
I am over 5’4”
I am under or on 5 foot
I am over or on 6 foot
I love my height
I hate my height
I am happy with my size
I wish i was skinnier 
I wish I was a bit larger
I am trying to lose weight
I have gone on fad diets before
I have taken diet pills and laxatives
I have fasted before
I have purged before
I have/had an eating disorder
My shoe size is a 3-5
My shoe size is 6-8
My shoe size is a 9 or above
It’s hard for me to find shoes that fit

Style/Makeup:
I shop at stored like Abercrombie, Hollister, and American Eagle
I shop at Hot Topic
I shop at stored like PacSun and Zumies
I shop at stored like Bloomingdales and Saks
I shop at stored like Forever 21 and Urban Outfitters
I shop at Wal-Mart, Target, and K-Mart
I shop at H&M , Zara , C&A , New Yorker and River Island 
I hate shopping

I love shopping

I own clothes I bought more than 5 years ago
I own a designer purse
I love over-sized tote bags
I hate skinny jeans
I wear high-waisted jeans
Mary-Kate Olsen has good style
I love buying shoes
I own a pair of converse
I love Uggs
I love flip-flops
I get my nails done regularly
I wear perfume
I hate pedicures
I wear fake eyelashes
I wear a lot of makeup
I wear a small bit of makeup
I don’t wear any makeup
I wear eyeliner every day
I wear lipstick every day
I wear lip liner every day
I love Burt’s Bees
I feel uncomfortable wearing mini skirts
I wear a lot of low cut shirts to show cleavage
I like high heels
I can’t walk in high heels
I love wedges
I love jeans
I wear thongs and g-strings
I wear granny panties
I wear regular underwear
I buy all of my bras from Victoria’s Secret
I love Victoria’s Secret’s PINK line

School:
I am in middle school
I am in high school
I am in college/university
I am a high school dropout
I am home schooled
I go to a private school
I go to a Catholic school
I have skipped a grade it was offered to me multiple times, but I did not want to leave my friends
I have been held back a grade
I have Honors marks
I am in one or more advanced classes (until June)
I am in regular classes
My favorite class is English
I love science
I hate English
I love math
I am currently failing one or more classes
I have straight A’s
I have straight B’s
I have C’s or D’s
I get a variety of marks depending on my course
I love my teachers
I hate my teachers
I want to graduate now
I love high school
I am in band or choir
I am in one or more school clubs
I am in school sports
I am on a Varsity or JV team
I am in drama club

My friends:
I have a best friend
I have multiple best friends
I have many acquaintances
My friends are crazy but I love them
My friends and I do everything together
I have a lot of guy friends
I have equal girl and guy friends
I have had the same best friend since kindergarten
My best friends change like I change my underwear
My friends and I get into many fights

Significant others:
I have a boyfriend/girlfriend
I am single
I have hooked up with one or more guys
I have never been in a real relationship
I am straight
I am gay
I am bisexual
I am boy-crazy
I have dated a friend’s ex 
I am a virgin
I have had sex before
I have never been kissed
I have had an abortion
I was pregnant in high school
I have/had an STD
I am saving myself until marriage
I am waiting for the right guy to have sex with
I lost my virginity when I was 13 or under
I love tall guys
I would date someone shorter than me 
I focus on personality
I love green eyes
I love blue eyes

I don’t care about eye color

Facial hair is sexy on boys 
Tattoos and piercings are sexy on boys
I love preps
I love nerds
I would date someone in the army

Family:
I love my parents
My parents annoy me
My parents are embarrassing
My parents are strict
My parents don’t care what I do 
I tell my parents everything
I don’t tell my parents much
I have 1+ brother(s)
I have 1+ sister(s)
I am the oldest
I am in the middle
I am the youngest
I am an only child
I have a sibling in college/university
I babysit my siblings
I love my grandparents
One or more of my grandparents are alive
I have family reunions (every month when it’s someone’s birthday)

Other stuff:
I am a grammar nazi (I don’t act it out though)
I love erasers
Chocolate is sex
I am pro-choice
I am pro-life
I believe in evolution
I believe in creation
I am a Democrat if I was American
I am a Republican
I don’t know what I am
I love Bush
I check the computer daily
I use MSN
I love Facebook
I love MySpace
I love Twitter
I love Tumblr
I hate people that TYpE liiKe ThIIs 0r Th!$ oR tHiSsIsSSs
I love Chinese food

I can’t believe it. Eight days ago, my cousin, favourite member of my family and the only one born before me, was run over by a car and died at the age of 20. I then had to leave home for a week for a class trip to London, which was terrible, and now I’m home and nobody told me about his funeral – I just found out that I was yesterday via his sister’s tumblr.

My empathy for his siblings and his parents is killing me, so I have shut it off.

The family still isn’t over my sister’s death almost two decades ago.

I have overheard the telephone call, I have heard my mum try to speak, “Oh Scheiße. Oh Gott, oh Gott, oh Gott oh Gott oh Gott…”

His mother could barely stand seeing him losing a lot of weight due to stress at university three months ago because she could “see him disappear” and enthusiastically nursed him back to health after he had moved back in with his family.

We all live in the same city, we meet at least once every month and ususally eight times in October, November and December.

My eighteenth birthday is in five days. I can’t be anything but selfish now that I have killed my empathy.

This will be hell.

There is this girl and I think I’m crushing on her. I’ve thought about it for a couple of weeks and the attraction has always been there after I had discovered that she is really, REALLY adorable because she is funny, kind, pretty, unexpectedly deep, interested in what the other (meaning me) has to say and a bit awkward and confused in the same social situations that I have my problems with, too.

I got to sit next to her today and while we were talking about formulas, I felt my stomach tingle and it didn’t stop until long after the lesson and I catch myself staring at her, daydreaming, and grinning to myself all the time.

It makes me happy because she might be my first real & healthy crush, but at the same time, all of this is really confusing.

I had to ride my bike in the dark today and it got me hooked, like, completely. I’ve since been jogging in the dark, explored our garden in the dark and climbed the fence to our neighbours’ garden.

They have died of old age recently and ever since I can remember, they’d had this group of trees, weirdly shaped, crooked and home of a cat family when I was eight. So I went to those trees for the first time in my entire life and took a leaf as a reminder of my ability to go beyond my own limits.

And all of this might sound like nothing, might sound so trivial, but it almost means the world to me. A turning point in my life, everything’s changed in my head.