Weird list of things that illogically feel completely unacceptable if I do them:
– talking about my negative feelings to others in a serious manner
– sitting in bed during the day
– laying down during the day
– sitting down when watching tv/ reading
– getting less than 20 minutes of exercise per day
– eating food that feels wrong in my hand
– that feels wrong for absolutely no reason
– eating pasta for lunch
– eating pizza on a normal day
– eating cooked meals
– eating normally
– actually being myself
– not being among the top 10 percent
– not being one of the very best
– getting something else than an A
– spending money on objects
– buying anything that isn’t the cheapest food
– talking to my parents about feelings
This list serves no other purpose than to archive for myself how weird and uncomfortable I feel each day.
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