I had to ride my bike in the dark today and it got me hooked, like, completely. I’ve since been jogging in the dark, explored our garden in the dark and climbed the fence to our neighbours’ garden.

They have died of old age recently and ever since I can remember, they’d had this group of trees, weirdly shaped, crooked and home of a cat family when I was eight. So I went to those trees for the first time in my entire life and took a leaf as a reminder of my ability to go beyond my own limits.

And all of this might sound like nothing, might sound so trivial, but it almost means the world to me. A turning point in my life, everything’s changed in my head.

Do NOT romanticize everything you see online. Stop sentimentalizing self harm. That picture of that boy “fixing” his girlfriend and kissing her scars? That is never going to happen. There is no Effy and Freddie. Cancer will not help you find your perfect Hazel-Augustus relationship. Being that girl leaning over the toilet with smudged mascara is not beautiful. Hating yourself is one of the worst feelings in existence. A rotting body wasting away until death, you do not want that. You do not want to be that suicidal boy with tears cascading down his cheeks. Abusive relationships are truly damaging. Dark rimmed ringlets under your eyes will not make you creative, artsy, or mysterious. Shaking hands, constant jitteryness, and overwhelming anxiety, OCD, or AD(H)D will not make you adorably quirky and it won’t make someone love you. Stop glamorizing self harm, suicide, eating disorders, body image issues, cancer, etc. Don’t you dare pretend to have anxiety, schizophrenia, OCD, AD(H)D, or any other serious disorder. That is attention seeking and people who pretend to have a disorder cause these horrible stigmas. In all honesty, these issues are far from the stigmas floating around, so do not bother pretending.

You want to romanticize something? Magnify your dreams and aspirations towards positive things. Idealize a positive lifestyle. Obsess over hipster clothing. Gush over celebrities. Dream of a faraway place. Do anything, except scroll through Tumblr with intentions of living a sad life worth writing about.

Amber K. from [x] (via darkness-consumed-me)