but like, emotionally, i’m just.. not.. registering it??? i’m not so much calm but like.. standing in a sound proof fishbowl watching all of my obligations press their faces to the glass, yelling and knocking, and like, my homework and emails are teaming up to make a battering ram and my job is trying to tunnel under and i’m just standing here watching it all in muffled, deaf silence like “ok”
I just realised that the rest of the world doesn’t know about one of my favourite New Year’s Eve in Germany things:
Angela Merkel getting out her shiny blazers for her speech.
They’re only for New Year’s Eve. The shiny Merkel is very rare and can only be spotted on the 31st of December.
But on the plus side… I’m about to get help (yet again…) for whatever is going on.
heavy
slow
I used to be empty, now I feel weighed down
and how will I go on, what am I even doing this for –
nothing, I’m not even doing this for anything that’s promising because it’s all just pointless and I’m losing hope and I’m getting more and more desperate and it’s affecting all parts of my life now and my fucking future and i just need a break from life and existence as a whole.
Six selfies of 2016 to start the year 2017.
That year was … intense (in how not-intense it felt while it should have), important and confused.
Watching a movie isn’t an activity that most Americans associate with New Year’s Eve celebrations, but one short film is a staple of a German New Year’s. Dinner For One, an 18 minute black-and-white film, was released in 1963 featuring British comedians Freddie Frinton and May Warder. The plot revolves around the 90th birthday of an upper-class Englishwoman who hosts a celebration dinner every year for her friends. The problem is that she has actually outlived those friends. As such, her butler James makes his way around the table, impersonating each of the guests in turn–including consuming that guest’s share of alcohol.
It has been estimated that nearly half the German population watches this film to mark the New Year. Is this classic film part of your New Year’s plans?
The Light in the Sky 