Kategorie: Allgemein
We’ve all heard about the characteristic starving artist who lives in a constant state of lowkey mental suffering for their work but… where’s the narrative of the happy artist? Who genuinely enjoys what they do and doesn’t necessarily live with consistent debilitating, even if ultimately art-producing pain? Art doesn’t always have to be a byproduct of some earth-shattering revelation or a projection of the twisted human soul or something.. it can be content, lighthearted, and most importantly so can the artist themself
Sometimes I still want things to get Really Bad, just for closure obviously, and then I remember last Thursday happened and I am immediately put off.
for science: reblog this with your hogwarts house and major/field of studies in the tags
“Gray like the color of gunsmoke, eyes that glow like living embers, wings sheathed in silence, and gripping feet tipped with daggers – these are the elements of a nightmare. And if ruffed grouse or snowshoe hares dream, the image of the great northern goshawk haunts their nights just as the living bird haunts them by day.”
– Northern Goshawk, Book of North American Birds
And maybe, there’s nothing wrong with you at all. Maybe you were just with the wrong people.
I am crushing on my Chemistry tutor and that’s weird considering it has only been four years since I told my friends how I thought I was a lesbian. Even though since then, I have come to the realization (multiple times actually) that I am bi (/pan/ whatever-ace, detailed labels are not not my thing), it’s still strange to acknowledge that. And of course it’s not that I am now only attracted to men! (or whatever). Hopefully, my flatmates – who I am not out to (although they should know that in theory (and in the past) I like(d) girls) – won’t think so! But I guess me crushing on a guy slightly older than me very much fits with their perception of me, which is similar to how I used to think of myself when I was fourteen.
And he is “my type” if I ever had one: a chemist, long dark hair kept in a halfway done ponytail, glasses and a beard, septum piercing, shirts of relatively old post hardcore bands, not much taller than me, slim (as in not broad or overly muscular) and a voice that I would listen to for hours on end. Also he is diligent, soft spoken and confident with a calming sense of humor, willing to put so much effort into his studies and us learning (so much!). And he has laughed at what I said and has acknowledged my contributions. I feel like he values us and his work a lot. Also, he was so sorry for not having time to answer our questions the afternoon before the exam because he had made plans to go to an otter information centre (a collective “awwwww” was heard from the audience). And now I don’t know what to do about this situation. He will give another tutorial next semester, but I might be studying at a different university by then.
Soooo, what else is new? Apparently I’m into geology and chemistry now, also statistics. And I wish to be a tutor for statistics or (theoretical!) chemistry or physics at some point in the future.
The Light in the Sky 