sunforest:

I kind of like having long hair, wearing dresses and red lipstick. That does not mean that I identify as female.

I love wearing “men’s clothes”, bowties and suits and wish I had a beard and a completely flat chest along with “male” anatomy, but that does not necessarily mean that I identify as male.

I wish I could just be a gender-identity-less someone, but I know people will call me a girl/ woman anyway, which I am incredibly uncomfortable with.

So now, a year later, I have short hair, can’t even stand being in a dress when no-one is around, hate lipstick, don’t wear any kind of make up ever, abandoned the bowties, wear mostly clothes from the men’s section, confuse people about my gender and want nothing more than to be perceived as male (or live in a completely genderless society, but well…).

I’d call that character development, but the crisis is so far from over… I feel like it has all just begun.